Will I ever stop seeing myself as fat?

If you've been following this blog you will know by now that on paper I have made some amazing progress in terms of losing weight and getting a healthier body. The sensible voice inside my head also knows that... but I just can't shake these damn fat glasses I seem to have acquired over the years!

I would guess that I have been visibly overweight for about 7 or 8 years now - gradually growing outwards that entire time. So considering that 8 years represents about 30% of my life I can see why my internal image of myself is a fat and unhealthy one. But can I / will I ever be able to change this? I truly want to!

I can definitely see how my life has changed over the past 8 months of being with M1nt, even just the little things like;

- putting on my socks in the morning is no longer an aerobic sport (let alone the issue that was cutting my toe nails!!!)

- when I look down I can no longer see my tummy sticking out past my boobs

- I can walk up the one flight of stairs to my office over and over again in a day without collapsing and almost needing CPR

- a day out shopping with the girls no longer involves me constantly scanning the horizon for a seat to rest on

- I can now wear heels to work - like the other 98% of the female population! Before I just couldn't do it - but with the weight loss and strengthening its no longer a problem at all.

Of course there are the obvious things as well like the 30cm off my waist and the almost 10kg of weight loss - but I still think of myself as fat! Is that just how my brain is wired?

I am rather typical I believe of the female population in that I am rather self-conscious of myself and my image. I worry about how I look - and considering I still consider myself 'fat' then my self-image is not a healthy one.

The body is changing... the scales are changing... my eating has changed... but will my brain?