Motivation - where do you get it from?

I have to admit something... way back at the start of this blog I made a promise to be truthful on here and really let people know how I'm feeling / how I'm getting on.

I've been bad :-( In fact if you want to witness what an angry Di looks like then I suggest you accompany me to my BIA tomorrow, I can ensure you that when Di reads my food diary for the last 4 or so days she's going to get mad! Although at least with her new office being downstairs it won't be so easy for her to call in Mike so that its Mr & Mrs Discipline both telling me I can do better...

While I have still been sticking to my 'basic' food plan, i.e. planned breakfast, morning tea, lunch, afternoon tea and dinner - the good old sugary snacks have appeared back into the routine. Damn it...

I don't know why I've slipped really - a combination of things I think. I certainly have noticed Di and Mike being away - the daily nod from Mike when he acknowledges me turning up to the gym in the morning, the knowledge of my weekly BIA and food diary checkup with Di usually helps keep me 'clean' - but I also think that I am self-sabotaging a little bit. In my mind I'm telling myself that my wedding is only 4 weeks away now, I'm soooooooo close to my goal weight that I've been aiming towards for my wedding, and for some reason I have translated that to mean; 'it will be fine, just one slice/biscuit/lolly, I've got this far - it will be fine'.

BAD

So I need to refocus and make sure my motivation levels get back up there again. After all, there is only 4 weeks until my wedding!

But what is motivation? How do I motivate myself?

I know of course that everybody is different - for example I know a person that attends M1nt - when they have a BIA session with Di they receive, and generally benefit from, a good old telling off. Being told to try harder and do this and that really works for them. Not for me...

I think that I never grew out of that rebellious teenager stage - so when someone tells me to do something I generally will do everything in my power to not do it! I recall a couple of BIA sessions I have had with Di - back at the beginning of this process. As you would expect I got a good old grilling - it backfired though. I left M1nt feeling very down and like it was all too hard, and where did I go - directly to the cafe across the road and got the BIGGEST slice of Caramel Slice that I could get.... hmmmm... caramel slice.....

Now though - when I go to see Di she does usually give me the positive reinforcement that works for me. Being told 'compared to last week, this is great' works for me - I can then strive to make next week better again. Just like the daily nods that Mike also gives me when I get to M1nt in the morning - inside I feel like a proud kid - he's noticed I'm here - good on me :-)

Positive comments from friends, family, trainers, fellow M1nter's etc is also fantastic. There is nothing quite like seeing someone you know at M1nt - but haven't seen for many months and their jaw almost hitting the carpet when they see you. The comments of "WOW - I mean, just WOW" kept me on a high for a few days! (thanks Nikki :-) )

So there... I admitted it... I have got back onto the downhill slope of sugary goodness intakes!

But, IT IS NOT GOING TO CONTINUE. I have broadcast this online now - so I have to be good!

And hey - if you do see someone at M1nt (or anywhere for that matter) and you can notice that they have lost weight - SAY SOMETHING!!! Everyone reading this will know that losing weight is not easy - so acknowledge it - give them a smile - tell them they are looking good.

You never know - someone might even say it to you :-)

hmmm..... Caramel Slice....